Something's Always Wrong

I've been writing this post in my head for a few days now.  For a few years, really.  Depends on how you look at it, I guess.

I can't think of a single thing I'm looking forward to.  Not tomorrow, not next week, not next month.  There is nothing on the horizon at all.  And what is the horizon, exactly?  It's the imaginary place where the sky and the land meet somewhere off in the distance.  But it stays way out there and it never gets any closer.  At any rate, there's nothing in front of me and nothing waiting out there.

"Today was just a day fading into another, and that can't be what a life is for."

Tomorrow I'll go to work and it will either be a good day or a bad day.  Then I'll go back on Friday and again on Saturday.  And on Sunday I'll have a day off, much like the one I'm wrapping up now.  I'll watch some movies and browse the internet.  Then I'll go back to work on Monday, etc.

Comments

[Bethe]

Want my opinion, DB? You need to get back in church. It will renew your hope, give you an avenue to serve and to grow, and help you get some cool friends in Houston.
--But that's just coming from a girl who has been in your shoes... okay, mine may have been high heels, but whatever.

[Simon]

Don't pretend you haven't worn high heels David.

I think I have some idea of what you mean. Is this abundant life (Jn 10:10)? Is this what it means to follow the guy who was forever in trouble and ended up getting murdered for the way he lived? Is this all there is to it?

I don't know if church will help that - depending on the church of course. Most churches I know are no different to the rest of the culture (except they sing and pretend to be happy and nice).

I reckon Ched Myers names our condition as First World Christians better than anyone. If you're interested, try 'Say to This Mountain'.

And don't be ashamed of those high heels. They look great on you.

[Mom]

I agree w/ Bethe. You need to get out and get involved again. How is the running going?